Our Shepherd in the Universe

It took me a full four decades to seek your forgiveness. And almost three of the four living in frigid cold every 6months, filled with pride I continued in my ignorance. You were quietly protecting, but I kept avoiding you. Now you visit us here with your usual schedule.  But I am miserable when I don’t see you.  My body shivers without you. Most of all I lose all hope when I don’t see you. Please forgive me. A rock has more clarity of you than me. Forgive me. 

In ancient times, in books of searches by the wise before me, they worshipped you. In some parts of earth they still do. I totally get it, I would too. They called you the seer of all things like the eye in the heavens as you make us see all things.  

I will always want to bow in your infinite light upon us. I will always remember to pause when I see you blessing us all. In some parts of the earth may you be merciful for they perish in your immense strength, earth seems to punish them too. I don’t know. I am grateful like every plant, flower, and living being who thrive in your glory. Each time you leave us, you leave a wake of memories that tug all of my past, and you part with a powerful promise of a new beginning. I have lost loved ones in your absence. Neither am I the same in your absence. But I appreciate the much needed respite from you as its equally essential for all life.

Dear Sun, the star assigned to nurse this earth. The shepherd of our travel through the universe. I understand your majesty, forgive me for I was a child when I cursed you for my hardships. I blamed you for life’s disappointments. I lately noticed you are losing your patience too. I am nothing, you may hear a million prayers offered to you daily. Maybe all this is, is just my soul cleaning its sin against you and convincing itself to move forward in harmony, perhaps rather childishly. I am grateful to you the shepherd, the guiding star of my ancestors and my generations that may come before your sight. I raise my hands together, and bow.