The Battered Wheel

I am a bit disappointed with myself. I am doing – repeating the mistake I would never do.  It’s almost like I am someone else in the inside and I have another outer me and letting it decay and letting it stray carelessly and irresponsibly. Like two concentric circles the inner me and the outer me. The inner me turns at 90 miles per hr but the outer at 3 miles. I don’t know how it got this bad. But when I realize how i don’t know that’s when it dawns on me that i let it become chronic in the past few years.

If you think about a simple wheel which has an inner wheel that has to spin to turn the outer wheel which then moves on the road ( might add a pic to explain).  To gain traction on the road of life two things need to happen

1. the outer wheel needs to get traction on the road (of life)

2. the inner wheel (gear) should engage and propel the outer wheel and not slip. You follow ?

I let it slip, so the inner wheel kept turning but it never engaged the outer wheel, and the outer wheel kept moving aimlessly, stopping, moving here and there on the road. I let this be. I am at fault

So what are these ??

a. inner wheel = yourself, your mind, your spirit.

b. outer wheel = your body, the perceived image of you by others, your definition per your career, family, workers

c. road = life

I always told myself to not let this happen, i have caught it now, but i knew it all along, i was not supposed to allow this and now the slip and less traction and the wandering is showing up on my career, family time and more importantly health. it has affected my health!

it’s never late to do the right thing, so here I go to engage and propel and move.